Sunday, May 22, 2005
Goober's gambling adventures
Distance Run: 0 Miles - Today was rest day.
Other Exercise: House cleaning
Last night Ant and I went out with some friends. First stop, the local casino/racetrack. I guess you could say that it was your typical gambling establishment although I didn't think it was that fantastic. Probably because I had only ever been to Vegas before and obviously this place is really small time compared to anything there. I can't complain too much though. We started with $20 and ended with $43.
After the casino, we went to a bar that left a lot to be desired. None of the clubs we have here really appeal that much to me especially after having been to RG1, The Matrix, and Avalon but some are better than others. This particular one that we went to has always been my least favorite. They mostly play that hip hop/rap crap with lyrics that not even I would repeat because they are just THAT raunchy. After two rather dreadful hours, we all left and went home. We probably wouldn't have stayed that long but one of the people in our group was meeting someone there.
This morning I saw a total "awww moment". There's a blanket that I had folded up and laid beside the bed on the platform that the bed itself sits on just in case it was still needed during the cooler nights we have had. Well, at some point during the night, one of the little furballs that roams this dump pulled the blankie down on the floor, created a kinda cubby hole with it, laid down and went to sleep. I found him there this morning and it was just the cutest thing. I only wish I could have gotten up, gotten the camera, and taken his picture without disturbing him.
Now on a more serious note.....
There is a certain someone I lied to. At the time I thought it was the best thing. This person had told me something and rather than acknowledging it honestly, I "hid" by just kinda brushing it off for what I guess I would say were moral reasons. I believe it was at least partly because of my convictions that this person was very hurt then staged a way to just drop out of sight and never speak to me again. A couple of months later after much thought and coming to the realization I was letting the idea of what others might think drive my actions more than anything else, I decided to tell this person what I should have at the outset. Because of the reaction I got (one that I knew I would probably get), I lied and said that it was a mistake even though it wasn't.
A couple of months after that, I did hear from this person and at this point, we are on speaking terms but I feel this strange tension between us and I have a feeling it has to do with this matter. The question now is, do I come clean or not? If I do, I fear that it could completely destroy what little is left. If I don't, I know this tension I am feeling is not going to go away but instead only get stronger and could in turn cause the same result. Ha! Looks like I have just answered my own question. If the result is probably going to be the same, I may as well just spill the beans and cleanse my mind of it. Right? Right!
I guess I shall be off now to step into the confessional.
Til next time.....
Knocked Off By The Fashion Diva
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